I am a planner. I am a thinker. I am a do-er!!!! I am constantly planning for the future. I don't limit the scope or timeframe for my planning. I am happy to look days to years in the future... and I am constantly... CONSTANTLY doing this. The plan never dies... the planning never stops.
This leads me to constant thinking about my plans... my life... just thinking about a million different things. I once described my mind to someone as a room with 20 different TV screens on at once... and I am following every single screen.
Then... I am a do-er..... I DO things.... I put my plan into action.... I follow through. I do not flake. I do not back down. Of this I am most proud. I love seeing a plan and my thoughts come to fruition.
These are all GOOD things... most of the time. I can stay ahead of the game. I am not rigid in my planning and do not freak out when a wrench is thrown into my plan. I can go with the flow with the best of them. I always believe, no matter what... that things will work out as they should and that is for the best. I believe in the power of positive thinking. I am ever positive in my thoughts.
As I sit here today... I have planned Scott's birthday weekend.... I am very proud of my (surprise) plan. I have dinner planned with family on Sunday. Ally has plans with a friend Friday night. Next week, I have plans to go to a wine tasting with the girls. I have a sleepover birthday party planned next weekend for Ally. Ally's birthday is the during the week that follows. I will plan dinner for her. The following weekend, we have friends coming in from Chicago.
There is always something to look forward to... and I like seeing the calendar full quite frankly! I am thinking way ahead... like what to do for Spring Break and about my girls' weekend in Chicago in February.... and about summer vacation... and what to do with Ally and Luke... and where Luke will go to preschool in the fall..... ALL these thoughts occupy my mind each and every moment. It's constant motion. It never stops.
It's such a good thing. Most of the time. I feel on top of things. I think things FULLY through. I always feel good about my choices.
But... what all of this means for the RIGHT HERE AND NOW... is that I have a hard time being fully present in the MOMENT. That is my challenge.
I cannot stop the planner in me. The thinker in me. She lives and breathes and cannot be stopped. She just needs to be quieted from time to time. I need to put the phone down. Look away from the calendar. Step back from the computer.... and just be. Look around and smile at all that is around me in the here and now...... and know that I have surely done all the planning needed for the future.... for now anyway...... :-)
Present in my moment. My 2011 challenge. :-)
3 comments:
Being present is so important. You don't want to miss all the stuff that you worked so hard to plan. Good for you. :) I like that you are so introspective. It is important for all of us to be a work in progress.
I think EXACTLY the same way about things as you do. I am a planner also, I get teased about it by everyone all the time!!! I like a full calendar too!:)
Don't miss the "present", it is you "gift"....especially the kids. Doing the scrapbooks, I just wonder where the time went...wasn't it just yesterday ally was at a Wiggles concert?
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