Tis the Season...

... to be stressed out! Fa, la, la, la, la.... la, la, la, la...... :-)

Isn't it the truth? Sometimes, I just lie in bed at night and think about all the things I need to do. Last night, I was so tired that I was in bed before Ally..... instead of doing things that I NEED desperately to do! Oh well....

I am trying to do too much all the time... it's the way it goes.

I used to feel in control. Lately, I feel that all feelings of any sort of control are beyond my reach. Maybe I just need to give in to that feeling and stop trying to regain that control..... easier said than done.

Work usually lets up for me around the holidays... and while I had a pretty stressful and horrid November and things died down a bit after.... I am still busy and mostly just have some big projects hanging over my head that I will not feel "relief" from for many, many months. I would like to be able to just take the last two weeks of the year off and not think about work at all. I'm just not certain that is possible.

I still have a great deal of shopping to do. I haven't wrapped a thing. We don't have our tree yet, but plans are in place to get one Saturday and decorate it Sunday. Both Scott and I have work Christmas parties tomorrow night and I haven't found anyone to watch the kids. I hate asking Scott's parents who watch them ALL THE TIME to keep them Friday night too, but I can't get my "once in a while" babysitter to return my calls!!! :-( Ugh....

I need a new babysitter. I need a nanny. I need some live-in help!!!!!!!! :-)

I am escaping for the day Saturday to go to Chicago for my last S Factor class of this session.... It wasn't the best of timing... but I LOVE it... and as much as it does add to my stress... it's the thing I get to do for me.... so do it I will! I don't know how I will be able to continue taking the classes, but I hope to at least try... in January hopefully.

The kids are doing well. Ally continues to just be the best lately. She is just so freakin' good all the time, I can't even convey how different it is. What a difference a year makes! School... structure... all of it. She's a happy, happy girl lately!

Luke is just all boy and getting into everything! EVERYTHING! I fear for our tree when we put it up. I won't even THINK of putting any gifts under it before Christmas Eve. The boy will destroy them for sure! He is a bull in a china shop.

I got the kids some matching Christmas PJs which I am so excited about... cuz I'm a dork like that! I want them to wear them now so I can take pics... but it is our tradition to give the kids PJs on Christmas Eve for them to wear that night, so I must wait!

The waiting is the hardest part................. ;-)