The Madness...

We suffered a great tragedy this week. The school shootings in Connecticut.  Wow.  I spent most of my day yesterday not knowing.  I was working all morning.  My mom came in to see me (how awesome is that, that she can!) and she asked me to meet her for a late lunch.  (adore this new schedule which allows me to do that!)

We had lunch and even had a few minutes to do some shopping together. Then, I drove to school to get my kids.  As I always have to get there so early to get a good spot to pick them up.... I always do some phone scrolling while I sit and wait.  I got on Facebook and started reading the statuses and was stunned by what I saw. Then, I went online and googled it... and started reading the articles coming across on CNN.

As I sat there and read... while sitting outside our very own school... I just cried and cried.  My god. I cannot begin to fathom the WHY???  Mind blowing.  There are a lot of messed up people in this world.  That's an understatement for certain.

Babies. Five year olds.  Elementary school children.  Teachers.  Principals.  My entire family is made up of educators and administrators.  I have my own children in school. They were both there yesterday. I cannot comprehend this tragedy.

WTF?  

Everyone deals with this in their own way. Some of us want to read a lot of the details... in an attempt to try to understand the WHY behind it.  Some of us want to shut it out and hear no more of it.  I think I lie somewhere in the middle.  I want to know... but I don't need to know it all.  

Then, there are my kids....

Neither of them knew anything of it... but Scott did talk to Ally about it later.  She will (and did) hear from other kids... and she deserves to be told the truth in a way she can comprehend it. The TV is pretty much banned for now though. Neither of our kids needs to see anything more than what is necessary.  That sounds ridiculous. None of this is necessary.........

Luke is thankfully oblivious and I'd like to keep it that way.

I saw this on FB earlier and it gave me a great deal of peace..... crazy peace because it really hit me......

... the children and teachers who didn't survive are safe in His loving arms... it's the survivors that need our prayers... that need to find peace.  A peace that won't come for a very long time, if ever... let's be honest.

I cannot fathom losing a child.. especially in this manner.  Prayers for the living. Prayers for the community.  Prayers for all.